No More Excited?
I just finished reading Margaret Atwood’s The Year of the Flood, which was apocalyptic and predictably chilling. But that’s only because she’s so good. I only hope that she’s not as good as Orwell in her predictions. I now want to go back and reread Oryx and Crake because that book was delightful in an absolutely undelightful way.
I’ve been reading up on the neurotransmitters. One thing I’ve learned is that I definitely have too much norepinephrine activated in my system at any given time. I’m learning some ways to control this, all of which involve some version of chilling out, whether it’s yoga, meditation, listening to the Drone Zone on SomaFM, or something else equally boring calming.
It seems that if I’m ever going to get a grip on the anxiety, I’m going to have to change my personality. Like a adrenaline addict, I amp myself up all the time, and have a good time doing it. I love feeling excited. Of course, I don’t like it when it all overflows and I go over the edge. So to not have that happen, I’d either have to have my brain chemistry changed, or deliberately become one of those calm, contemplative people…which goes entirely against my hyper, neurotic nature.
Sage and I did yoga today. Amazingly, it actually did make me feel calmer. It also managed to make muscles in my back that I had been previously unaware of hurt, a lot. Sage is better at it than me, and made sure that I noticed.
Anyway, how do I put a lid on “excited”? I just love that emotion so much! What’s your favorite emotion? And does bombing the moon bother anyone else?
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Atwood is fabulous!! I would hate not being excited–but don’t like the high I get from caffeine, so I drink it rarely. And I do miss it, even though I feel lots better.
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I need to pick up these books you mentioned and do some recreational reading for a change. Right now it is all about the kiddos. We think Noah may have APD so am researching that and of course at their age it’s all behavior type books. Fun, fun.
LOVE yoga. And yes, it will make your body hurt in places you never knew would hurt from something that seemed so simple. You will get better and better at it each week. I am loving the class I am taking and going to start trying to do it with the kiddos as well. They love to crawl under me when I do a downward dog postion. Ha!
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I love feeling emotional. And as I get older I get that feeling more often and intensely. It makes me feel alive. I’m at my happiest with tears running down my cheeks. Does that make me a typical man??
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It *is* interesting that they feel the need to describe the LCROSS impact as ‘bombing the moon’. It’s kind of like sensationalising a biopsy as ‘stabbing the patient’.
My favourite emotion is that sense of being somewhere with no worries and a big view. Does that have a name?
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