Big Whiny Pity Party
Michelle on Nov 15 2008 at 2:28 pm | Filed under: The Personal
Whining ahead.
I’ve been working on the agor thing. I’ve been able to travel much further. Greg has been wanting to go to Houston. I didn’t think we were going to be able to go this weekend, because he had to work. His work got canceled at the last minute, though, and now he and Sage are going. I’m not going because I have this horrible, horrible PMS that is causing all kinds of anxiety and mood problems right now. It is not the right time, and I cannot help that.
I’m so disappointed that I can’t go. Or that it would be misery if I tried, or whatever. I’m TIRED of missing out on things with my family. I HATE not getting to see Sage experience new places.
When Greg told me they were going, I burst out crying. I’ll be spending the day by myself, probably having a pity party. He got mad at me for not being more gracious, and of course Sage is not thrilled about going without me. That is a shame, because they’ll be skating at the Galleria.
I don’t feel like a good human being right now.
Michelle I hope you feel better soon. You could always try some evening primrose oil or Sam-e, I’ve tried both of these suplements and they seem to help a little. Although I usually just turn to the old stand by; Alcohol. Take care and feel better soon, Emma
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It’s a good sign when you actually realize you are having a pity party. Most people are so wrapped up in themselves that they have a pity party and can’t step back and look at themselves objectively. You know, there isn’t anything wrong with feeling sorry for yourself when things like this happen. Your self-awareness will drive you to do whatever it takes to get better in the future. We all have our crosses to bear and we have the occasional pity party as a result. I have a thing about talking on the telephone. When talking with strangers my throat tries to close up and I can’t catch my breath. It is damn frustrating and embarrassing so I can feel a little of your pain. Feel better soon!
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But you have been doing SO much better with it–give yourself credit! You don’t feel like going for other reasons and they are legitimate. I wouldn’t want to go either if I felt crappy and PMS moody. You wouldn’t be good company and everyone would be miserable. You did the right thing, absolutely. Celebrate your selflessness. Hugs.
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Uh, am I too late to the party?
Go to bed and you just might feel better the next day!
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Just found your blog. I like your point of view (similar to mine in lots of areas – you’ve obviously got good taste!) and the way you write. I have read lots of your posts, but going through all 300 is just a bit much for me!
Hey, I brought some wine, a nice Italian red… Oh wait, my mistake.
Sometimes things happen that suck, and you feel bad. If you have things in perspective (which you do), then there’s nothing wrong with that. It’s just proof that you’re human.
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R has even started having panic attacks, so don’t feel like you’re abnormal. I feel bad every now and then about all the pills I take, but then I am reminded of how crazy our society is and wonder how everyone else is coping.
You let Sage go and I think that’s the best that you could do. Your support and encouragement will make a difference. My parents hardly wanted me to go anywhere or do anything.
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Like Ken said, awareness of where you’re at is an important step. It sounds like you’re making steps with the agor – remember, exposure therapy is the best treatment – slowly continuing to get out there.
Sending peace & love,
JP/deb
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I’m sorry this is a hard time for you. It DOES sound to me that your reasons for not taking the trip are well-thought-out. It’s not just one thing, or a “simple” excuse; not feeling well puts a crimp on things. You wouldn’t feel like good company anyway. It’s OK. When you are feeling better, I’ll bet you’ll take the opportunity. (Or at least, feel more like taking that step).
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