Busy Busy Weird Weird
Michelle on Aug 26 2007 at 5:34 am | Filed under: The Personal
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This past week has been insane.
I haven’t had much of a chance to think about Jerry’s passing. My principal hired a wonderful lady the first day we were back, and it seems as though Jerry has transferred or something. It is weird. Everyone else also seems to be in this state of denial. That will end as soon as the kids are back on Monday and we are dealing with the grief. I guess we’ll be coming to terms with our own then as well.
I’ve been working very long days, and that will continue, as the school district is offering me $50 an hour to tutor after school. I’d be a fool not to take that money, so I’ll be working later four days a week. I’m glad I’m getting an opportunity to build my savings back up again! I’m also committed to going to the gym for an hour every day, so things are busy busy busy.
I’ve been so busy that I was ready to quit my other blog, but a programmer in Canada fixed some things, and when I checked it out tonight, I found that I have 233 subscribers instead of the 3 that were previously showing up, and that Problogger had given me some props, which was cool. So I am inspired to hang in there. That blog is ranked at about 18,000 in Technorati after two months, which is sweet.
Here’s a weird thing. You know how women complain they can’t meet men? I don’t have this problem. But I should. I am waaaay too fat at this point, and I rarely make an effort to “look hot” because I have other things on my mind. I also never go out because I am too tired. Yet there are two guys who are interested, not counting the sporadic and confusing attentions of Stubeh.
I don’t want to “date”. My first responsibility is to to Sage, and I can’t dilute that by devoting too much energy to a guy. I also will not let him see me with any guys, ever. On the other hand, it would be nice to be friends. I’m getting some good offers, activity-wise. Target shooting, anyone?
Who am I kidding? This isn’t a problem, although it definitely is a mystery. My ego is loving it.
They’re only drawn to you because you are pulchritudinous and effervescent. It is nothing to be proud of.
That money is sweet! It takes a while for the reality of death to sink in; it just feels like the person is “on vacation” at first. He or she should be coming back any time…Michelle, I don’t think that you are seeing yourself as others do; I am the last person to talk since I can be very self-critical also. I think going out and doing activities would be fun! I encourage you to go for it.
Your blog is hating me again. You are just as self-critical as I am, so I can’t judge. But we aren’t seeing ourselves as others do. Go out and do some fun activities, if you feel like it. Life shouldn’t be all work and parenting. Death is weird to adjust to; it’s like the person is just gone on vacation, and will be back anytime. It doesn’t seem at real at first.
Well, I should have problems like that! Just relax and don’t worry about things. Get out and enjoy finding out about those new guys. I’m glad that your year has started well, if busy.
Your ego should be lovin’ it. Hey Michelle, sorry I’ve been so fricken’ absent … gawd, this summer is kickin’ my ass. Honey, don’t talk to me about fat - remember, the word is curvy. Curvylicious.
Re the dating thing - my only advice is that you’ll know. You’ll know when to make Stubeh and official X & you’ll know when to let another man into your heart.
Cheers, peace & love,
JP/deb